¡fucking blood sugar!

I had a small dinner last might (about one and a quarter slices of pizza). I fear I would have vomited had I tried eating any more of this pizza. I had some left over mashed potatoes before going to bed.

I did not wake up feeling hungry during the night. I woke up feeling just fine and wondered what surprise my blood sugar would give me. I got a shock as it was:

¡72!

Seventy fucking two! It has not been that low in a long time.

¡I hate fucking blood sugar!

I can't predict it, I can't fucking comprehend why it changes.

Oh, well, perhaps this will push off the needle...

my fucked up blood sugar numbers and despair

Given the fucked up and wildly erratic blood sugar numbers I've had lately, I am giving into despair. I talked with a medical doctor at a health faire a couple of weeks ago and he told me about two weekly shots I could take that enable my current pills to work much better. (I wish I had written their names down.) Also, it would help keep me "off the needle" much longer...

There is a veil of self-imposed secrecy over diabetes and maintained by diabetes. I was taught by my parents that telling folks about my medical problems is the worst way to gain attention. Practical experience has taught me that outsiders don't give a shit and don't want to hear about your medical problems. (Sometimes, even your own family does not want to hear of them.)

So, I simply do not mention my diabetes, past heart surgery (stents), asthma, and visits to my oncologist. This ain't none of their (outsiders) business and they (outsiders) want to keep it that way!

10 October 2017

_____Breakfast: 

• slice of leftover "Texas Toast" with honey and then
• bowl of Jimmy Dean
  • sausage,
    • pork sausage!
  • scrambled egg and
  • potatoe breakfast
• two big cups of coffee

________Lunch:  

_______Dinner:  

Pre-Bed Snack:

October 2017 blood results

October 2017 Blood Sugar

Day  Date AM    PM

Sun    1  ---   ---   
Mon    2  ---   ---   
Tue    3  141   177   
Wed    4  ---   ---   
Thu    5  126   199   
Fri    6  ---   ---   
Sat    7  ---   ---   
Sun    8  ---   ---   
Mon    9  ---   ---   
Tue   10  124   233  
Wed   11  ---   ---   
Thu   12  144   169  
Fri   13  ---   ---   
Sat   14  ---   ---   
Sun   15  ---   ---   
Mon   16  ---   ---   
Tue   17   98   201   
Wed   18  ---   ---   
Thu   19   86   165   
Fri   20  ---   ---   
Sat   21  ---   ---   
Sun   22  ---   ---   
Mon   23  ---   ---   
Tue   24  142   105   
Wed   25  ---   ---   
Thu   26  140   247   
Fri   27  ---   ---   
Sat   28  ---   ---   
Sun   29  ---   ---   
Mon   30  ---   ---   
Tue   31  ---   ---  

AM is immediately after I got out of bed.
PM was taken 2 hours after I finished dinner.
Results that are too damn high for some reason.